New Journey

This is just the begining, it's not the end :-)

Liverpool, UK
20080828 a.k.a end of my university life, 1029pm
Rach in welcoming my new journey mood.

real update

1. Fainted
   Yea fainted at last weekend, and really scared my friends like hell coz i fainted without any sign, except i'm suddenly feel dizzy when i stand up from sofa (which is pretty normal for me, as am anemia).
   Sit down back and migrant, i tot i can at least walk back room (i was in kitchen that time) but i cant even stand well (i felt i stand well yet others said am swinging). They forced me to sit down and i fainted, i don't know how i get back to my room and i dunno why am fainted as well.
   According to Dr. Ivan Yong (ahahaha), he said my mind and body shut down coz too tired. And i hv to admit tat am really stress and lack of sleep few days continuosly, coz there were 2 deadlines in the same week and i dunno wat the hell of the assignment questioning about.
   I ended up like doing the readings and research on the question like no tomorrow, made really thick tea to kept myself awake, and tat cause my body couldn't support my mind, and fainted.
   The following days i felt like am sitting on a sampan, and having seasick. I saw everything like moving except myself, forced to skipped one day class and felt so upset, not for skipping the class but missing my home.
   
   
2. Ivan's boy-turns-to-man Project
   Doesn't mean the smooth criminal rapes Ivan successfully (the detail pls link to http://jingonline.tumblr.com/page/5, the entry at 5 of July... hehehe), but Ivan decided to gives her mum a big surprise, he wants to dye his hair~! As Zoe is half pro-hair stylist, and am the busy-body future journalist, so the project were proudly presented by Zoe and Rach. Ahahahaha.. lazy to tells the detail, link to his blog and read more detail!
   
   
3. Buffet and Souvenir Hunting's Day
   After submited the fu*king assignment by thursday, went for shopping with housemates and Ivan at Friday, hunts for the souvenir for my friends and family as another 2 weeks to stay in Liverpool. Got most of the souvenirs and only leave couples of friend have no idea wat to buy for them.
   Went for chinesse buffet as lunch with Ivan, Jenn and Griza, enjoyed the very delicious time with my fellow friends. Made me miss my mum's cooking a lot!
   
   

The foods!



Griza & me





Jenn & me


4. Almighty Ivan Project.
   Right after shopping and got back to apartment, girls were busy ready the surprise party for Ivan's 22 years old birthday!! Ivan went spot by spot and collected the clues of where was his birthday present hiding. A really crazy and unbeliable night! I bet no one of us will forget till his or her last breath!
   Happy Birthday Ivan Sang! Thx for take care of me wen i'm sick, hope our frenship will last forever!
   p/s: It doesn't mean u can bully me forever okay~!
   


5. Elegant Day
   Sleep at 6am, and woke up at 12pm, and Griza called for goin to Museum, shower and dress up then out to Museum with huge panda eyes. Went to National Museum Liverpool a.k.a Zoo Liverpool. It wasn't a typical museum but 3 out of 5 floors were aquarium, bugs and animals, and space. 3 of us wondered we were in musuem or zoo. Overall the museum is intersting and not bored at all, it u guyz hv the chance to come to Liverpool, this museum is something u couldn't miss it :)
   The Walker Art Gallery juz next to the museum, of course we won't walked out for one museum only, althought we leave 1 and half hours from the closing time of the gallery, we still walked in to have a look. And i think i will come by myself for a more detail visit again :)
   
   
6. Plan for my trip
   This is wat make my mood ups and downs a lot wen planning it, juz simply because the plan keep changing and alot of uncertainly, plus the limited budget and unfamiliar with the place, sometime juz feel wanna give up and go back to malaysia without any trip plan.
   Finally the plan was confirm, will go for Europe trip for 1 week, and back to London for another week, then take coach to Manchester airport and back to Malaysia alone. Hopefully not over budget and i'll enjoy the plan.
   

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- another assignment and exam to go, and i'll get my life back SOON!
- i cant believe 3 months i was here.
- missing malaysia
- what i will be after this?

Liverpool, UK
20080825, 1103am
Rach in blue mood

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For who were asking for my update, this is my "update".
Am juz not-so-ok, will update the real update after this Thurs.


p/s: i miss home, miss babby, miss cookie, miss my friends, miss my room, miss my bed, miss my little Kelisa, miss everything and anything in Malaysia.

dun care

Crumble by the bloody result, being siao for few days and totally do nothing although another 2 assignments deadline in the coming week. End up with do nothing in this week, and i decided to juz enjoy this week. By the way juz don't worry me much my frens, am pretty ok now and i juz wanna set myself free, tat's it.

I was remembered everyone is so jealous on my long-straight-shinning black hair, everyone asked me to keep my hair long and i do think so. Am juz so proud with my long hair and i treasure it so much.

April 2008 - Me with my long hair

And today, i decided to chop my long hair down~! Don't ask me y coz i don't know either, just feel like i don't care anymore.

August 2008 - chopped

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Zoe - thx for da free chopping
Elaine - am alright and i know u r helpless too
Eva - am sorry for da belated bday wishes, i love ya and happy bday gal.

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- i dun care and why should i care?
- i wanna get my life back
- anyone / company / press needs a siao reporter or editor?



Liverpool, UK
20080814, 0115pm
Rach in don't care mood

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Depression

about yourself:
nobody likes me; I'm worthless; I'm unlovable
I am doing really badly on this course
I'm a failure; I will be criticised; I will be rejected
I am a fraud - I should not be here
nobody will ever want to have a relationship with me


about your situation:
Cambridge is a horrible place
I will never be able to do all the work
I don't fit in; I'm different; I will always be alone
I have nothing in common with anyone here


and/or about the future:
it's hopeless; I won't be able to cope
things will never get any better
I am always going to feel like this

I'm juz simply stupid, i'm juz not up to the standard.

Video update

Thesis draft? Done!

Assignment? Done!

Next assignment? DON'T CARE!!!

So from last Friday onward, i do NOTHING!

Just wanna tell my readers, especially my Babby bear, i will relax, just don't worry ya. Tryin best to not release my stress by wrong way, so, DON'T NAG me :P.

Was chat with Sun and she told me she SHAVED my Kinki baby! and he's freaking ugly now! She hv no choice coz he hv skin allergy ;(... pity my Kinki baby..

video tat Sun sent to me, my god son Kinki

Kinki make me miss my cookie, found this video, make me even miss him... :(...

Miss ya Cookie *sob*

I saw the sunset, and seeing the sunrise.

Has been a while disappear from my blog, juz simply busy but not forget bout my readers.

Having the hard week, where gonna submit my thesis draft and a don't-know-how-to-do assignment. Anyway edy done the assignment, juz for focus on my thesis which will weight 12 credit hours in my whole semester.

Planned to finish the whole thesis by Thursday, then i hv time to re-check my assignment by Thursday night or midnight before submit to the office. For finishing up 2 chapters from my thesis that i leave, i prepared very well by throwing 2 tea bag in a 250ml of boil water, if only u can image how thick of the tea was. And the tea kept me awake until the next day 8 am. This is what refer to my blog and msn's title - "i saw the sunset, and seeing the sunrise."

I get my thesis officially done by 7 something in the morning, gonna complete it with appendix, tables, re-check literature reviews, reference, biliography, check the grammer and structure after re-check my assignment later.

The main point isn't not complaining how the university torture us (trust me, am not INTEND to HINTS something. Trust me, MR. IQBAL!). The main point is because of 7 moduels, 14 assignments, 1 thesis, 1 presentation, 1 examination throughout this 3 months, helps me to saw countless time of sunset of today and sunrise in the next days. So what should i complain since university likely to helps me spent all my life's romantic sunset and sunrise moments in only 3 months? I bet i will not enjoy to waiting the sunset and sunrise moment with my future Mr.Right anymore. T.T..

5 smth in the early morning.

Thx my little Greeny fully supports and accompanies me 20 hours non-stop, and don't not complain even once time. I will love ya forever my little Greeny baby! muarck muarck

No matter how many times i told my Greeny i'm goin to throw him to the floor, he never try excapes and stands still in front of me.. hehe..

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Griza & Ivan - Relax lah~ hv to practise malaysia culture le kawan.
Babby - I miss ur accompany Babby, u always there for me wen am rushed my assignment in college time.. *tears drop*
Jimmy - No matter how bz am i, i'll there for u wen u need me... errr.. there for u for couple of minutes.. hehe
Zoe - I saw the sunset, and seeing the sunrise, and i see u too! tong dou zhong yan wor! ahaha

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- stupid ppl do stupid things.
- don't expect and don't compare, do your best and get the result proundly (Rachel, 2008)
- 3 weeks to go, and i will get my life back wow!

Liverpool, UK
20080807, 1256pm
Rach in thankful for "sunset and sunrise project" by LJMU.