Recovering Journey Part 4

I stayed at home in the last Saturday, and do nothing.

I should start to be alone without let myself fall into depression.

I used to be alone, i love to be alone in fact, of course i don't hate to be with my friends. Just.. when i was alone, i feel comfortable with do what i want to do, go anywhere i want to go.

But ever since that happened, i just cant be alone, i trying to made myself as tired as possible, go to have much fun as possible. I just cant be alone, i will feel i'm so stupid to get myself into such loneliness.

I actually planned to go Batu Cave or Sungai Tua Waterfall alone in the Saturday, but i ended up staying at home, decided to give on last chance to cry and release all my sadness and depression.

but..

I wasn't drop even a tear.

I remembered i read a lyric of a song by singing that the sadnest is crying without tear.

I don't know if i'm just exactly like the lyric, but I hope maybe i still haunting by the fact that he told me last Monday, or i'm not accepting yet that i'm such a fool for him, which he told me he'll never fool me.

Anyway this is not the main of this entry.

Finally, the one has the closest relationship with me had appear at last. The cousin, Elaine Yap.

She was busy with her final exam in this 2 weeks, and she just ignored me.

I kinda used to it, forever she depends on me, like i never need her shoulder.

Yea Ling, i'm complaining. And i tell you what, i hate you in the last 2 weeks. Of course you know i won't hate you long, as long as you spend a little bit time for me from your revision, you know i cant angry you long. *sigh*..

She texted me for drink in the Saturday night, we didn't chat much when having drink, she probably knew i'm not happy with her and i'm still in bad mood. But slowly i feel uncomfortable for the silent situation, i started to talk a bit just for let her know, i'm ok to talk with.

*Ling, i'm tired sometime la.. I'm not tough, i wish to be a little girl and play with my temper too. Can you please care my feeling more? I thought you know how hurt am i this time? I know you're busy with your final year exam, but if say like you're busy till you've no time to send me a simple texted message nor a msn message to make sure i'm ok once within this 2 weeks, this is somehow i cant tolerant with. You let me feel i'm the spare once again.*

After the drinkin session, i told her i want to go out of KL.

She said ok, lets go.

Then we drove all the way to Putrajaya, from Kepong, with my hubby kelisa, speed up to 130km/h, in half hour we reached there.

Not showing off i have good driving skill. I don't have.

Not telling i'm speeder. I'm good driver, except this time.

Not saying that Kelisa could speed fast. It freaked us out when we felt like flying when speeding up.

But i am trying to conclude that i'm upset, i'm depress. I only do such crazy-idiot-childish thing whenever i feel not right.

The crazinest is, i actually sat in the middle of the road. I don't need a photo to prove it. I believe all of my friends will trust me would do that, as long as i'm not alright.

Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia
20090504, 0927pm

Rach in want to out of KL mood again.

Recovering Journey Part 3

the one day trip by last Tuesday. Yea i'm not working again, i called Stev up when he told me all these in Monday, i beg him to bring me to somewhere else, i just don't want stay alone.

the next day, we went to Genting.

Thanks for the good weather, good foods, good people we met over there, good security guide thought i'm under age to enter casino, good joke by Steven, thanks for those good stuff to cheer me up.

Some random photos, i didn't took much photos that day, i just look horrible that day.

Thanks Stev to catch my smile.

In the cable car, goin up to Genting

Steven Adidas cap, i love it very much

the shoes

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i bet i'll never do this in my life time, i watched 3 movies in a week time.

Just to know that i can stay in bookshop for long hours (Record: 8 hours in Kinokuniya), but i cant stay in front of TV more than 2 hours. I will either fall asleep, or i'll end up doin something else.

I'm not a film lover, but sometime i willing to spend time to watch some good movie though. I love horror movie, but no one dare to watch with me much, because i laugh a lot when watching horror movie and i'll beat someone when i laughing. I know this sound "gosh" but this is me.

I watched 2 horror movies out of 3.

Thai horror movie is my all time favourite, they're professional and up to the standard in producing horror movie, but "Coming Soon" disappointed me, only few scenes freaked me out, the rest just so so.

Steven the one choose this movie, in the whole movie he kept pointing out something like..

"See, Thai suck! (the main character of the film betray and slap his girlfriend)"
"If i were the girl i won't be with the Thai lor.."
"Thai good meh? Thai people nothing good."

something like this, obviously he hints something and i just keep silent till the movie end.

The next movie is Thread of Destiny with Steven also.

Steven brings me out when he knows i actually stay at home alone in weekday. We have no idea where to go and what to do, he suggested to have a movie but that time i feel like don't want everything. Then he choose this movie.

Good music, good songs, handsome and pretty characters, but the story line isn't good and smooth, bad subtitle translations (missed out some translation), i kind of confused in the ending part. Conclusion, you don't need to spend the 10 bucks and walk into cinema for this movie. Steven given the same comment as well.

The 3rd movie, Malay horror movie, Jangan Tegur.

This is the first Malay horror movie i watched, but this is absolutely disappointing.

Eva the one accompany me, she let me choose any movie i like to have althought she's not willing to watch horror movie that much, and i just want to have horror movie and have a good laugh that time. So i choose this.

Bad story line, bad artist, but good make up, good sound effect, and funny ghost.

I almost fall asleep when watching this movie, waken by the damn loud sound effect. Some of the scenes suppose to be horror but in eyes is funny, of course i laugh out loud and make Eva so embrassed.

I don't know how to end this entry, i'm not so alright, lack of sleep and feel sick. Will come back to blog about doggie and Putrajaya night trip later on.

Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia
20090503, 0917am

Rach in thankful mood.

Recovering Journey Part 2

I'm not a food lover, but good food can cheer me up. People around me want to cheer me up, they brought me to tasted good food in this 2 weeks, thanks people =)

Jogoya treat by my boss, thanks Tong and Tania



Bubba Gump at The Curve with Zoe. Thanks darling for the shrimp meal!

Sushi Zanmai again with Steven

Red Box lunch-K with Steven

Not to forget Kenny Roger with Eva, Mocha ice-cream with Steven, seafood treat by my Babby. Thanks people =)

Recovering Journey part 1

I try to keep my blog update almost every few days, to keep my readers update themselves about me, and to record down my life stories.

The longest time I leave out my blog was my grandma's funeral, and this time even longer, i'm sorry for all my friends and family who care me a lot, some of them couldn't find me due on my number changing, made Eyr, Jon and Kyle calling to my house phone and e-mail to make sure i'm ok.

In this 2 weeks, i trying to work really hard and let my works occupied all my time, but everytime i sitting in front of my desk i started thinkin all those memories, and the harsh thing he've done on me.

My boss knows i'm not alright, thanks for his forgiveness because i slack a lot, and let me took few days leave and relax.

I took Sasha advice, i went to outdoor, i do whatever i love to, i met friends, i enjoy natural, going to one day trip and road trip, go to have some good food and good time with my friends, and with my not-really-happy-mood.

Steven: Cant you just stop sighing? Cant you just enjoy?!
Me: Stev, i'm trying hard to be happy but.. Sorry for wasting your time to keep me company..
Steven: Rach, happy no need to try hard to, its come naturally when you're really feel happy. Just stop thinking bout the fellow, life must go on, he's not worth to waste your time, and MY TIME!
Me: ....

Thanks Stev, although you're younger than me, but cant deny you've matured thought.

I went out a lot with Steven in this 2 weeks. He knows i love roadtrip, i love natural, he brought me to FRIM and park a lot in this 2 weeks, and also Genting one-day-trip, movie, shopping, dining, karaoka to keep me company and cheer me up

Thanks dude, i feel guitly to want you keep me accompany, you don't need to do that for me.. Just.. except thank you i don't know what else i can say to you. Really, thank you.

In Kepong Metapolitan Park


Sunset view

Lake view

Kepong FRIM river

Kepong FRIM jungle

He insisted not to touch the water in the early morning

Thanks for the photo Stev :)

Waterfall in FRIM

Kepong Menjalara Park

Kawasan Perkelahan Air Kroh

The waterfall

The morning view

the way to jungle

Me and Steven

Steven: Rach, smile le!
Me: *yiiiiii*
Steven: fake one. Be happy, be happy when be with me.

Me: =)

Thanks dude, for the everything.

Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia

20090502, 1043am

Rach in recovering mood.

Message

Don't surprise if you found some of my posts missing, yea i deleted it.

Not because of i feel guilty, not because of that aren't true, not because i afraid of him, just because i want to delete it, as i wish to delete this person in my life. I want to get over from all these, i want to end it.

I ask nothing, i just want to be alone, leave me alone and i'll be fine, soon.

Keith: I hate you to do such thing behind me, you have no different with set me up, you're not helping me, you're just trying to mess thing up. Do respect my choice, if you really know me, you should understand me. You shouldn't do this and tell me, you do this all because of me! If i want to be dumb then just let me be! I never want my friend to hurt someone because of me. Keith, you leave me alone, i really don't feel want to talk to you at this moment. Just leave me alone.

Megan: I know you're part of it, don't try to tell me anything about him, i will hate you as well.

Kristy Lim: I never met you before, i don't know why were you doing all this. I mean.. i knew it, that's why i made my choice and give it up, i never want thing goes to this way. I want to let it over. Yes i'm a loser, but i feel better to become a loser, can you and Keith just stop bugging me?

I don't feel like blogging at all especially at this moment. All i want is flood by my works, till i cant breath.

Sasha.Jonathan.Eva.Steven.Zoe.Jennifer.Kuan.Wayne.Woon.Crystal.Tong.Tania.Chai.KarKar. Joshua.

When i look back these days in the future, i will never forget you guys here for me, hold me on, sad for me, spent time with me, spoke to me, listening to me, wiped my tears, brought me out, made me smile, called me up to make sure i'm still alive.

Especially you Steven, thanks alot buddy, thanks alot alot.

Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia
20090429, 0852pm
Rach promises will come back with a lot of happy face photos, she makes her pledge.

Bye-bye Foldy :'(

hmm.. girls like camwhoring, i'm an ordinary girl, so i love taking photo with my phone. Anywhere, anytime, with anyone...

this is the random shot i took in my office wash room.

with my new born baby Nokia 6600 fold. I just love the quality of photo taken by my new photos, its made me like a photo-taking-crazy ever since i bought him..

but....

I DROPPED IT YESTERDAY!!!!

this made me sad.. very very upset.. of course for the 2 months new baby, but i actually care the contacts, photos and messages more! I tried to sent texted message to my phone, that i don't mind to pay for getting my phone back, just please GIVE IT BACK TO ME!!!!

yet the whole day i got no response.. then i know the bastard who took my phone probably thrown my sim away and owned my baby foldy :'(...

the worst is.. i didn't managed to get back my old number because it was registered under Jimmy's name, he helped me got this number before i got back from UK, of course if he wanted to got the number he has to register first, he did remind me to change the registration name if i'm free but i'm just way too lazy :'(, my fault no. 2.

now Jim is busy working and so am i, i had decided to gave up on the old number, and got another new one, of course i lost all the contacts numbers. So friends please drop me messages in msn, i will reply with my new number.

and guess what.. the mobile number settled, follow with the phone.. just don't ask me why i would got this phone..

yea.. this is SE w980.

it was my dream phone actually, with the build in 8G memory and the luxury touch screen are really attracted me. Just the point of price, when i was decided to change my SE Z520i, W980 was far expensive than Nokia 6600 fold. So i chose Nokia because of the cheaper price, and also try on other brands mobile phone. Everyone telling me that i have no fate with Nokia, i should just go back to SE, and finally, yea i with SE now.. aihh.. i too moody to construct the sentences.. of course i'm happy to got my dream phone on hand but er... i still miss Foldy anyway..

Foldy.. please forgive the clumsy mommy, i just hope you're fine now, and the new owner is treating you far carefully and good than me do *sob sob*.

and SE w980, i don't know what name i should give you yet, but i hope you will serve me good, although i kind of not sactified with the quality of photo, but still you're cool. Welcome to be my 5th child.

20090416, 1103om

Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia
Rach in sighing mood.

Lost and not found =(

now is 3.10am, and i'm awake.

i trying to make this as a long blog, but i'm actually not in the mood, i just lost my baby nokia 6600 fold yesterday morning :(

this mada me sad, although the brand new Sony Ericson W980 is on my hand now. Just don't ask me to storied why i got the new phone and how i actually lost my baby 6600, i'm trying to not recall :(.

and yea, i lost my number as well, i went to report the lost in maxis center but i forgot this number was registered under Jimmy's name, he is way busy working and we need to appear together for changing the registration name, i don't think this can be done in one day time, so i got another new number. Friends please msn me your number, offline or online, i need to get back all the contacts.

Rach's msn: ys_chew@hotmail.com
*i don't approve anyone, so please let me know before you add me.*

bye my baby nokia 6600 fold *sob sob*



Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia
20090416, 0322am
Rach in missing her baby mood