Its all enough to give explaination. Whatever you think you're right and i'm wrong, just go ahead.
Just one thing, why should i change my character?! I be the way i am ALL THE TIME, i opened it up all to you since the very very beginning, you told me you guys ok the way i am, and you're the one answered me countless "if someone really know you, she will found ok to be with you, like us".
You're the one told me you accepting the way i am, and now you ask me to change my character?!
不要剥夺我最后仅有的一点自尊。
I won't change any single thing of mine because of someone that betrayed me.
I rather i be all alone, i won't sacrified the unique of myself to get any friend back.
No, never.
自尊给回我，其他的，你喜欢怎样说，就怎样说。
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Saturday, February 13, 2010
The Last Cry
我抱歉因为我忘了什么时候认识你
但是你知道这个不是重点，重点是无论我认识了你多久，又或者我们背景有多不相同，
你陪我哭过
笑过
闹脾气过
发疯过
甚至在所有人都不在乎我的眼泪的时候
你不断地让我知道你很在乎
不断地到我狠狠地骂你
嫌你
羞辱你
厌恶你
直到我讨厌我自己为什么对你凶
但你那一贯的笑容都没有落下过
我不会忘记你告诉我：因为我认识你啊！
那是这段友谊中最让我感动的一刻
感谢天
因为我认识你。
愿你，生日快乐，安康。
_____________________________________
I'm really proud with you on your achievement and glad that i could have be by your side in your unforgetable moment in your life.
When you're saying thank you for my accompany in your convocation, and felt sorry on something had happened between us in the past, i would like to say thank you and sorry to you, too.Thank you for let me share your happinese and has give me your fully trust not only as a cousin sister, but also the closest friend in this world.Sorry for my bad temper and emotional sometimes, i knew sometime i being so rude and offensive to both of you and Eva, but you girls had ever leave me behind and accept the way i am.
Here you go on another stage of your life, don't be afraid nor lost, because Eva and I will always be by your side, wherever and whenever.
Lastly, CONGRATULATION!!!!!! Love you darling!
_____________________________
Whenever i read the 2 old posts back, i feel i such a fool, such a childish, such a pity.
"我不会忘记你告诉我：因为我认识你啊！"
"i knew sometime i being so rude and offensive to both of you and Eva, but you girls had ever leave me behind and accept the way i am. "
This completely kill me, like real.
放不下就是放不下，我的自尊心就是那么他妈的强。
我在以为被允许的情况下伤害过你们，不追究你们允许我放肆的责任，单纯诚心诚意我原来伤害了我重视的人而向你们道过了歉。
但你们对我的伤害，我能forgive, 我不能forget，因为我就是他妈的死心眼的人。
我若是不配让你们敞开心胸真诚相对的话，不要不断地对我说那些他妈的话，然后在最后不但掀开一切真相，也让那些曾经我天真以为是真、但是假的话留在我的脑袋里，让我在孤独的时候不断地谋杀我，一天一天地蚕食我看的比生命还要重要的自尊心，也吞没我对别人的信心。
连你们都会隐瞒背叛，谁还可以相信？
我宁愿，我不要你们当初的同情配合，当面拒绝我、排挤我、杯葛我，让我从头到尾都是一个人；也不要让我为你们付出一切的信任后，才一脚踢开我，告诉我从前是多么不该，多么可怕，多么独权。
你们要的，或许只是一个架上连我自己也觉得恶心面具的我。
世界上没有什么人可以相信，也完全没有所谓知心好友那么幼稚的事，我戴着面具，也可以活得很好。
诚心感谢你们，让我看清唯一相信的童话，原来只是一场春梦。
Rachel Chew! This is the damn last time you cry for this! Tomorrow is new year, put on your mask and be the one that people wish you to be!
Kepong, Malaysia
20100213, 1056am
Rach in the last cry in Cow year.
但是你知道这个不是重点，重点是无论我认识了你多久，又或者我们背景有多不相同，
你陪我哭过
笑过
闹脾气过
发疯过
甚至在所有人都不在乎我的眼泪的时候
你不断地让我知道你很在乎
不断地到我狠狠地骂你
嫌你
羞辱你
厌恶你
直到我讨厌我自己为什么对你凶
但你那一贯的笑容都没有落下过
我不会忘记你告诉我：因为我认识你啊！
那是这段友谊中最让我感动的一刻
感谢天
因为我认识你。
愿你，生日快乐，安康。
_____________________________________
I'm really proud with you on your achievement and glad that i could have be by your side in your unforgetable moment in your life.
When you're saying thank you for my accompany in your convocation, and felt sorry on something had happened between us in the past, i would like to say thank you and sorry to you, too.Thank you for let me share your happinese and has give me your fully trust not only as a cousin sister, but also the closest friend in this world.Sorry for my bad temper and emotional sometimes, i knew sometime i being so rude and offensive to both of you and Eva, but you girls had ever leave me behind and accept the way i am.
Here you go on another stage of your life, don't be afraid nor lost, because Eva and I will always be by your side, wherever and whenever.
Lastly, CONGRATULATION!!!!!! Love you darling!
_____________________________
Whenever i read the 2 old posts back, i feel i such a fool, such a childish, such a pity.
"我不会忘记你告诉我：因为我认识你啊！"
"i knew sometime i being so rude and offensive to both of you and Eva, but you girls had ever leave me behind and accept the way i am. "
This completely kill me, like real.
放不下就是放不下，我的自尊心就是那么他妈的强。
我在以为被允许的情况下伤害过你们，不追究你们允许我放肆的责任，单纯诚心诚意我原来伤害了我重视的人而向你们道过了歉。
但你们对我的伤害，我能forgive, 我不能forget，因为我就是他妈的死心眼的人。
我若是不配让你们敞开心胸真诚相对的话，不要不断地对我说那些他妈的话，然后在最后不但掀开一切真相，也让那些曾经我天真以为是真、但是假的话留在我的脑袋里，让我在孤独的时候不断地谋杀我，一天一天地蚕食我看的比生命还要重要的自尊心，也吞没我对别人的信心。
连你们都会隐瞒背叛，谁还可以相信？
我宁愿，我不要你们当初的同情配合，当面拒绝我、排挤我、杯葛我，让我从头到尾都是一个人；也不要让我为你们付出一切的信任后，才一脚踢开我，告诉我从前是多么不该，多么可怕，多么独权。
你们要的，或许只是一个架上连我自己也觉得恶心面具的我。
世界上没有什么人可以相信，也完全没有所谓知心好友那么幼稚的事，我戴着面具，也可以活得很好。
诚心感谢你们，让我看清唯一相信的童话，原来只是一场春梦。
Rachel Chew! This is the damn last time you cry for this! Tomorrow is new year, put on your mask and be the one that people wish you to be!
Kepong, Malaysia
20100213, 1056am
Rach in the last cry in Cow year.
International Driving Permit
Update a bit bout my NZ trip.
Steal a little time when goin out for assignment to apply the International Driving Permit.
I guess we would be travel a lot with car instead of public transport because in NZ, public transport is extremely not convenience, same time the car prices is extremely low (image, Estima sold NZD 2800 ONLY!), but of course the petrol price flow with the international price la.
Surprisely, we get it all done in HALF HOUR, while the hall is full of people!!!
And that's a Friday summore, impressive!
Just i kind of dislike the design of the permit, that's just a soft card with HAND WRITING, and its HUGE!!!! like the 3 times of the size of our driving license, i don't know where should i keep it yet :S.
Anyway, another preparation done. :D
Next! Spread our resumes out! Got a job and got a place to go!
Oh yea, Happy Chinese New Year!
Oh yea x 2, the photos above taken by Xiao P, extremely clear with every single letter! Good job Xiao P :D.
Steal a little time when goin out for assignment to apply the International Driving Permit.
I guess we would be travel a lot with car instead of public transport because in NZ, public transport is extremely not convenience, same time the car prices is extremely low (image, Estima sold NZD 2800 ONLY!), but of course the petrol price flow with the international price la.
Only JPJ could apply the permit, and the permit only last for one year, you gotta renew it every year with RM 150, i consider reasonable.
So that day i went with Sun, we ready to spend the whole afternoon in JPJ Wangsa Maju (IF you're Malaysian, you would know why).
Surprisely, we get it all done in HALF HOUR, while the hall is full of people!!!
And that's a Friday summore, impressive!
Just i kind of dislike the design of the permit, that's just a soft card with HAND WRITING, and its HUGE!!!! like the 3 times of the size of our driving license, i don't know where should i keep it yet :S.
Anyway, another preparation done. :D
Next! Spread our resumes out! Got a job and got a place to go!
Oh yea, Happy Chinese New Year!
Oh yea x 2, the photos above taken by Xiao P, extremely clear with every single letter! Good job Xiao P :D.
Kepong, Malaysia
20100213, 0951am
Rach in holiday mood :D.
20100213, 0951am
Rach in holiday mood :D.
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
Introduction of Xiao P
Played with Xiao P last weekend. I love his panorama feature, this is fantastic!
Cookie and Pudding as my model. :P
I shaked when Pudding sniffed the lens, but i kind of love this photo as well.
Compare with compact camera and DSLR, i choose the middle range, which is SLR camera. I dislike compact because it was like toy, i always make myself into trouble or complicated situation (yes this is me), i would think that set or control a cameara manually let me feel i really "play" with it. So as what i feel on car driving, i always go for manual instead of auto.
ok too far.
I brough Xiao P with RM1400, including 8G SD card, which could store 7000 photos. I love Xiao P because it in both manual and auto mode (of course manual mode is more than auto la). So these few days i was learning on how to set the lighting, ISO, flash, shutter speed, shaking this and that, and i set all the ISO, shutter speed thingy by my own, yealar i know some photo is slightly dark but hey, i'm a beginner.
I have no qualify to give Xiao P a review, so here i give you guys the spec of Xiao P. And if you're just a beginner, go to something cheap, and easy before you enter to professional level.
SP-590 UZ Features:
-12 Megapixels (effective), 1/2.33" CCD for up to 3,968 x 2,976 pixel images
-26x wide-alngle Optical Zoom + 5x Digital Zoom with Dual Image Stabilization
-TruePic III Image Processor
-Accurate AutoFocus system with Face Detection mode
-Panoramic Mode stitches 3 images together
-Shadow Adjustment technology and Soft Background Focus Mode
-Low-light focus assist Illuminator
-Built-in pop-up flash with wireless flash compatibility
-2.7-inch HyperCrystal II LCD 230,000 dots 5 Steps Brightness Adjustment
-29 shooting modes including Auto, Program Auto, Shutter-speed priority, Aperture priority, Manual, My Mode, Sensor-Shift Image Stabilization, Beauty Mode, and creative scene modes for beginners
-10fps burst speeds @ 3MP, 6fps @ 5MP, or 1fps @ full resolution
-AVI format movie mode w/sound 640x480 or 320x240 at 15 or 30 fps
-Digital ESP, Spot, Center-weighted and Face Detection AE metering options
-Exposure Compensation: ±2 EV steps in 1/3 EV steps
-White Balance: iESP2 Auto, 6 presets, custom WB
-Shutter speeds of 15 seconds to 1/2000 second (Bulb up to 8 minutes)
-Noise reduction for shutter speeds of 1/2 sec. or longer
-Selectable ISO settings from 64 to 6400 (3200/6400 @ 5MP only)
-In camera editing options such as Perfect Fix and Beauty Fix.
-Built-in microphone and speaker
-Attach short audio clips to still images.
-Powered by 4 standard AA type batteries
-USB Direct-print with any PictBridge compatible printer
-USB 2.0 High-speed connectivity for PC and Mac
-22MB of built-in memory plus optional xD-Picture or microSD (adapter required) memory cards
Oh yea, another thing, Xiao P is powered by 4 AA batteries.
At first, this is the only reason make me dont feel want to buy Xiao P, but after research i found some SLR camera do use AAbatteries, of course pro and con are there la, but after read all the review from the user of Xiao P, they found the features and all these are actually better than Nikon P90, or Canon SX20, which are the same range of camera with Xiao P.
So, Xiao P is with me now :D.
Welcome you, Xiao P.
View from my balcony.
Cookie and Pudding as my model. :P
I shaked when Pudding sniffed the lens, but i kind of love this photo as well.I'm the beginner of SLR camera, i have been doing research on which SLR camera suit me the best and within my budget. So finally i ended up with Xiao P instead of Canon and Nikon or Lumix, although lot of people were saying that these brands are better.
Of course i dont deny that Canon or Nikon has better quality, but its out of my budget and for beginner like me, i don't know if i really interested in photography or just want to have a try.
Compare with compact camera and DSLR, i choose the middle range, which is SLR camera. I dislike compact because it was like toy, i always make myself into trouble or complicated situation (yes this is me), i would think that set or control a cameara manually let me feel i really "play" with it. So as what i feel on car driving, i always go for manual instead of auto.
ok too far.
I brough Xiao P with RM1400, including 8G SD card, which could store 7000 photos. I love Xiao P because it in both manual and auto mode (of course manual mode is more than auto la). So these few days i was learning on how to set the lighting, ISO, flash, shutter speed, shaking this and that, and i set all the ISO, shutter speed thingy by my own, yealar i know some photo is slightly dark but hey, i'm a beginner.
I have no qualify to give Xiao P a review, so here i give you guys the spec of Xiao P. And if you're just a beginner, go to something cheap, and easy before you enter to professional level.
SP-590 UZ Features:
-12 Megapixels (effective), 1/2.33" CCD for up to 3,968 x 2,976 pixel images
-26x wide-alngle Optical Zoom + 5x Digital Zoom with Dual Image Stabilization
-TruePic III Image Processor
-Accurate AutoFocus system with Face Detection mode
-Panoramic Mode stitches 3 images together
-Shadow Adjustment technology and Soft Background Focus Mode
-Low-light focus assist Illuminator
-Built-in pop-up flash with wireless flash compatibility
-2.7-inch HyperCrystal II LCD 230,000 dots 5 Steps Brightness Adjustment
-29 shooting modes including Auto, Program Auto, Shutter-speed priority, Aperture priority, Manual, My Mode, Sensor-Shift Image Stabilization, Beauty Mode, and creative scene modes for beginners
-10fps burst speeds @ 3MP, 6fps @ 5MP, or 1fps @ full resolution
-AVI format movie mode w/sound 640x480 or 320x240 at 15 or 30 fps
-Digital ESP, Spot, Center-weighted and Face Detection AE metering options
-Exposure Compensation: ±2 EV steps in 1/3 EV steps
-White Balance: iESP2 Auto, 6 presets, custom WB
-Shutter speeds of 15 seconds to 1/2000 second (Bulb up to 8 minutes)
-Noise reduction for shutter speeds of 1/2 sec. or longer
-Selectable ISO settings from 64 to 6400 (3200/6400 @ 5MP only)
-In camera editing options such as Perfect Fix and Beauty Fix.
-Built-in microphone and speaker
-Attach short audio clips to still images.
-Powered by 4 standard AA type batteries
-USB Direct-print with any PictBridge compatible printer
-USB 2.0 High-speed connectivity for PC and Mac
-22MB of built-in memory plus optional xD-Picture or microSD (adapter required) memory cards
Oh yea, another thing, Xiao P is powered by 4 AA batteries.
At first, this is the only reason make me dont feel want to buy Xiao P, but after research i found some SLR camera do use AAbatteries, of course pro and con are there la, but after read all the review from the user of Xiao P, they found the features and all these are actually better than Nikon P90, or Canon SX20, which are the same range of camera with Xiao P.
So, Xiao P is with me now :D.
Welcome you, Xiao P.
USJ, Kuala Lumpur,
20100210, 0206pm
Rach in forgotten her phone mood.
Rach in forgotten her phone mood.
Monday, February 8, 2010
Lover of mine
I'm back, with Olympus SP 590 UZ aka Xiao P.
with 26 times zoom..
build in flash..
sexy body
and i love it!Oh by the way, i goin back to Facebook, and i guess i will be blogging more often.
And no, friend issue not yet solve, and will not be solved, at least for now, but life must go on, i learned to be alone, and i feel good.
Thanks for the concern from you guys =)
USJ, Kuala Lumpur
20100208, 1158am
Rach in sun burn mood.
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Annoucement.
Yes, something happen.
You're not goin see me in facebook, nor msn.
Or blog.
At least, I don't think i will blog as frequent as last time in short future.
I'm just not ready to communicate with human yet.
Sorry but i will be back.
Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia
20100127, 1019am
Rach in being betrayed mood.
You're not goin see me in facebook, nor msn.
Or blog.
At least, I don't think i will blog as frequent as last time in short future.
I'm just not ready to communicate with human yet.
Sorry but i will be back.
Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia
20100127, 1019am
Rach in being betrayed mood.
Thursday, January 21, 2010
Just across my mind
我仿佛有种错觉，觉得我像是电影中的那高傲独立没有人缘的女主角。
穿着高跟鞋和套裙一边把那该死的20张大纸皮塞进我的小车中，手指不小心让锋利的纸皮割伤，不痛，但流血了。
我下意识的甩了甩手，舔了指头上的血，继续搬纸皮。
警卫看着我，或许有想帮我的意思，但却只帮我扶着购物车，看着我搬。
搬完，关车门，抬头。
“Thank you, good day.”
我既然对孟加拉警卫装起洋人来了。
开车门，跨上车，开车。
“一个人也没有什么是办不到的”
我或许不是女主角，但是我是高傲独立没有人缘的。
穿着高跟鞋和套裙一边把那该死的20张大纸皮塞进我的小车中，手指不小心让锋利的纸皮割伤，不痛，但流血了。
我下意识的甩了甩手，舔了指头上的血，继续搬纸皮。
警卫看着我，或许有想帮我的意思，但却只帮我扶着购物车，看着我搬。
搬完，关车门，抬头。
“Thank you, good day.”
我既然对孟加拉警卫装起洋人来了。
开车门，跨上车，开车。
“一个人也没有什么是办不到的”
我或许不是女主角，但是我是高傲独立没有人缘的。
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